Dreams

FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS

We were talking today on the way home from the beach, isn’t it weird how when you are a child everything seems possible you can be whatever you want to be, you can dream big, dream to be whatever you want, an astronaut, a biologist, a singer, an actress, a photographer for vogue, 

then you hit 14 and suddenly no one has dreams anymore, you have to wait at least 5 more years for that privilege in general if at all,  suddenly it’s laughed at to say you want to do any of the above, but hold on some people DO do those jobs so how did it suddenly become so funny it might be you thats doing it.

The truth is it isn’t…. we can all be anything we want to be, there is no special exclusive club to get you into any of them other than hard work and passion.

What a ludicrous world we live in full of fear of chasing things and living out our dreams, children are the smart ones.

I’m going to stay a child forever

The Awful Truth

 

assalamualaikum dunia. kebenaran sangatlah sakit. ambil peduli la bila jalan kaki dekat dunia. tengok sekeliling. pilih jalan yang betul. jangan sesat. jangan pijak duri. gila. percaya aku cakap apa. entah aku tak faham cakap apa. kesian saja. esok kemahiran hidup. kalau tak lulus. tak hidup. jadi selamat menjawab. semua yang terbaik selamat malam dunia

ahh

harini paper math. paper two macam senang. paper one nampak senang. tak cukup masa. ngantuk. sakit kepala. gila. tembak hampir seploh soalan. stay nak duduk sorang-sorang. mek ajak balik. pegi kelas kharee. bagi ok. tapi die tak ok. hmm aku pun ok la balik dulu. sampai rumah lambat. jalan macam siput. letak beg masuk dapur. potong mangga makan dalam bilik. ahh frust sangat layan tangled. boring. layan guitar hero sampaila maghrib. eh kenapa semua nak gaduh ni. tanda soal. taktahu ke aku ada exam ni. ha. tanda soal. tahi la. behave la cakap dah dewasa. ini ke dewasa. tanda soal. assalamualaikum

Pieces

I'm still at the same place. I'm weary from wandering by your side. Even today, as I was wandering. Day has passed again and again. Now I'm here. You know, you know that my heart is hurting. Watching you smile makes my heart ache more. For not making you love me more, it's my mistake. For loving you more than you love me, it's my mistake. For not making you love me as much as I wanted you to, it's my mistake. How much longer must I cry? As I believe in that promise... I'm the only one trusting it. You lied to me to wait for you. Even my greedy side (for this love) has grown weary. You know, you know my heart is hurting. You can't just ignore it and smile like that. I knew I couldn't have you. But my heart just kept growing. It's my mistake for waiting by myself. It's my mistake for regretting by myself. Loving you. Even though my heart was hurting. It's my mistake for not letting you go. I'm such a fool. I knew I would get hurt and couldn't let go. It's my mistake. Even though it could be all my fault. That's okay. As long as you're there.. Always.. Please forgive me for being like this.

sincerely,

the person who loved you

Menstruation